Painful Progress
When pain becomes so intrinsic to life,
when feeling healthy is a novelty,
cuando ya casi no aguantas,
a faint silver lining comes through.
But this hope soon turns into fear.
Fear of staying a mystery,
fear of knowing,
fear of the process.
Fear.
"Porque yo?" knowing all too well to stop
that vicious circle of self-blame.
Panic flashes across my eyes
masking the truth behind them.
Este dolor que me arranca el cuerpo y la mente.
I close my eyes not to betray them -
this wasn't panic.
Mismo en mis sueños me lastimas.
Pain, my old friend,
I long for the day when you become a distant memory.
when feeling healthy is a novelty,
cuando ya casi no aguantas,
a faint silver lining comes through.
But this hope soon turns into fear.
Fear of staying a mystery,
fear of knowing,
fear of the process.
Fear.
"Porque yo?" knowing all too well to stop
that vicious circle of self-blame.
Panic flashes across my eyes
masking the truth behind them.
Este dolor que me arranca el cuerpo y la mente.
I close my eyes not to betray them -
this wasn't panic.
Mismo en mis sueños me lastimas.
Pain, my old friend,
I long for the day when you become a distant memory.